Remembering life that soon will be gone…
The past
two months I had spent a lot of time to
think, gave me a lot of chance to reflect on my life, of who I am, what I’ve
done and brought me to a realization that as time goes by ready or not… everything might end for
me.
There
will be no yesterday to look back to and no tomorrow to look forward to; There
will be no sunrise to wait and no
sunset to watch; No rain to bathe from
and air to breathe. There will be no second, minutes, hours or days.
Everything
that I’ve collected and saved, everything that I bought and kept, everything
that I have will not matter anymore. All the wealth that I have and the money I have worked for, saved and
everything that I have will be irrelevant.
My
complaints, resentments and frustrations will be gone. My jealousies, anger and pain will all
disappear. My hopes, dreams, ambitions,
plans and to do list that Chacha keeps on asking me to do will expire. The wins and losses will all fade away.
It
will not matter where I came from, where I grew up, studied or work at. All the time I spent fixing my self, getting
thin or the wanting to get sexy, pretty and brilliant will be just a part of memories
and does not serve any relevance at all.
No
matter how many times I rise and fall on love and relationships, or how happy
and painful they have been, no matter how many times I cried, smiled is not
important anymore.
So
what will matter ? How will my days be measured then?
Now
what will matter would be what I have given and what I have build; What will
matter is my significance not my success… not what I have learned but what I
have taught others…
What matters is
every act of kindness, compassion, every act of integrity… the courage to fight
for others and sacrifices I have made , the way I empowered weakened heart and
encouraged a hopeless soul.
What
will matter is my character not my competence…what will matter is not how many
people I knew, but how many lives have I touched and how good of an example I have been.
What
will matter is how many friends will feel a lasting loss when I am gone…
How many tear of gratefulness
will fall for me and how many people will smile
remembering the memories we’ve
had. How many years will those memories
linger in their mind and what a peaceful feeling it might brought them.
What
will be important is how long will you be remembered by whom and for what.
Living
a life that matters is not by accident but by choice… now I can’t help but
wonder… at the end of my time … can I say I have lived a life that matters to
everyone I love and cared for? Can’t
help but wonder… how about you?
