Confusions of The Heart
One question has confused me this days… Is it infatuation or is it love? Easy question but I find it very difficult to answer. Ha! Good luck to me until I finally find the answers hehehe. So, let me write about this and see if my own writing can convince me about it.
Infatuation as how merriam-webster describes it - is to inspire with a foolish or extravagant love or admiration while Love is a strong affection for another arising out of kinship or personal ties. Having said that, do you think everyone understood their meaning?
I don’t think so… let’s try to analyze those words… getting its simple meaning - infatuation is a strong admiration. Oh ok, so if you admire someone because their smart, funny, sweet or friendly, pretty, sexy etc. and you put emotions into that admiration then that would mean your infatuated. Very simple right?! So when you like someone because of the attitude, looks and personality; or it makes you smile just seeing that person; you get contented with just having a glimpse of him passing by - That’s definitely infatuation. Ok now, I admit I’m infatuated.
Now, how about love? It is a strong affection - affection as in tender attachment or a pleasurable feeling of consciousness, arising out of kinship or relationship or personal ties. Ok, got that! So, When you become close… you feel jitters in your spine when you happen to catch him looking at you and you blush every time he smiles at you; then you start being affected by his/her presence; by his/her opinion and you get hurt by mere words; you do things to please him/her and you make him feel special; when you can’t pass a day without thinking of the person and when it makes you cry just knowing he likes someone else then that must have been love. What?! This is getting to be more confusing now.
Defining them is quite easy right? Differentiating them is simple as well but how about if you feel all of those?! Something like, you feel you’re both infatuated and in love?! Actually, it feels good, warm and nice but hard as well. But then that would be something more than what you can imagine.
While thinking and writing this I remembered the movie “10 things I hate about you”, the girl wrote a poem… that poem shows the confusion of someone’s heart. Let me share with you my own version of that poem. (This one’s for you J)
I hate the way you talk to me
And the way you piss me off.
I hate the way you drive me crazy
I hate it when you bluff.
I hate it when you show you’re smart
And the way you read my mind.
I hate you’re smile and your sleepy eyes
It makes me sick, it even makes me rhyme.
I hate the way you’re always right
I hate it when you lie
I hate it when you make me laugh
Even worse when you make me cry.
I hate it that you’re not around
And the fact that you are so far.
But mostly, I hate the way that I don’t hate you
Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all
Confusing di ba?! Well, no matter how confused we are, the most important thing is we share this love or whatever feelings to other people… Let’s all be in love with love itself.
