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One question has confused me this days… Is it infatuation or is it love?  Easy question but I find it very difficult to answer.  Ha! Good luck to me until I finally find the answers hehehe.  So, let me write about this  and see if my own writing can convince me about it.

Infatuation as how merriam-webster describes it - is to inspire with a foolish or extravagant love or admiration while Love is a strong affection for another arising out of kinship or personal ties. Having said that, do you think everyone understood their meaning?

I don’t think so… let’s try to analyze those words… getting its simple meaning - infatuation is a strong admiration.  Oh ok, so if you admire someone because their smart, funny, sweet or friendly, pretty, sexy etc. and you put emotions into that admiration then that would mean your infatuated.  Very simple right?!  So when you like someone because of the attitude, looks and personality; or it makes you smile just seeing that person; you get contented with just having a glimpse of him passing by - That’s definitely infatuation. Ok now, I admit I’m infatuated.

Now, how about love?  It is a  strong affection - affection as in tender attachment or a pleasurable feeling of consciousness, arising out of kinship or relationship or personal ties. Ok, got that! So,  When you become close… you feel jitters in your spine when you happen to catch him looking at you and you blush every time he smiles at you; then you start being affected by his/her presence; by his/her opinion and you get hurt by mere words; you do things to please him/her and you make him feel special; when you can’t pass a day without thinking of the person and when it makes you cry just knowing he likes someone else then that must have been love.  What?! This is getting to be more confusing now.

Defining them is quite easy right?  Differentiating them is simple as well but how about if you feel all of those?!  Something like, you feel you’re both infatuated and in love?! Actually, it feels good, warm and nice but hard as well.  But then that would be something  more than what you can imagine.

While thinking and writing this I remembered the movie “10 things I hate about you”, the girl wrote a poem… that poem shows the confusion of someone’s heart.  Let me share with you my own version of that poem. (This one’s for you J)

I hate the way you talk to me

And the way you piss me off.

I hate the way you drive me crazy

I hate it when you bluff.

I hate it when you show you’re smart

And the way you read my mind.

I hate you’re smile and your sleepy eyes

It makes me sick, it even makes me rhyme.

I hate the way you’re always right

I hate it when you lie

I hate it when you make me laugh

Even worse when you make me cry.

I hate it that you’re not around

And the fact that you are so far.

But mostly, I hate the way that I don’t hate you

Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all

Confusing di ba?!  Well, no matter how confused we are, the most important thing is we share this love or whatever feelings to other people… Let’s all be in love with love itself.

Just want to share with you the song that will always reminds me of Him… "sigh" daanin na lang natin sa buntunghininga hahaha… Dolly, girl sad you did not meet him but I’ll be glad to share you the story… vodkha lang katapat nito lol.

"Out Of Reach"

Knew the signs
Wasn’t right
I was stupid for a while
Swept away by you
And now I feel like a fool
So confused,
My heart’s bruised
Was I ever loved by you?

Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach,
Couldn’t see
We were never
Meant to be

Catch myself
From despair
I could drown
If I stay here
Keeping busy everyday
I know I will be OK

But I was
So confused,
My heart’s bruised
Was I ever loved by you?

Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach,
Couldn’t see
We were never
Meant to be

So much hurt,
So much pain
Takes a while
To regain
What is lost inside
And I hope that in time,
You’ll be out of my mind
And I’ll be over you

But now I’m
So confused,
My heart’s bruised
Was I ever loved by you?

Out of reach,
So far
I never had your heart
Out of reach,
Couldn’t see
We were never
Meant to be

Out of reach,
So far
You never gave your heart
In my reach, I can see
There’s a life out there
For me

Hi,

He must have been too specially for me that I have managed to write a poem for him… This one’s for you… Take care and God bless!

My Final Bow…

By Ejiev (8-10-07)

I can’t remember when it began

Don’t know the dates or if there was a rising sun

I can’t think of when I first felt this way

And can’t even explain why the feeling stayed.

First time I talked to you?

First time I walked with you?

First time I see you smile?

Or was it the first time you made me cry?

Confused…

But everyone felt what was obvious

Aware…

But denying the truth I swear!

But who am I fooling?

Who am I convincing?

No matter what I do, can’t fool my heart

Can’t convince myself that it is best that we’re apart.

But, today I will make my final bow

Let all the pain hurts in one blow

I will not look back nor stay

For if and when  I do I will never let you go away.

Having too much of love to give

I  just hope a good life for you to live;

Having too much care to bear

I pray that you will be safe anywhere.

Cherish the memories we have shared

Never be in despair

Remember me in any way you can

Then I will be contented wherever I am.

Je t’aime, let it be your guide

Je t’aime, let those words be your strength.

Forget not, that someone has loved you

In a way that no one else can ever do.